it's not....

"IT’S NOT A MIRACLE YOU NEED; YOU NEED A CHANGE OF ATTITUDE"

~   ― Bangambiki Habyarimana, The Great Pearl of Wisdom

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I close....

"I CLOSE MY EYES AND I LET MY BODY SHUT ITSELF DOWN AND I LET MY MIND WANDER. 

IT WANDERS TO A FAMILIAR PLACE. 

A PLACE I DON’T TALK ABOUT OR ACKNOWLEDGE EXISTS. 

A PLACE WHERE THERE IS ONLY ME."

~   JAMES FREY, A MILLION LITTLE PIECES

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So here I am....

"SO HERE I AM. THIS IS AS GOOD AS IT GETS. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT."

~   CHUCK PALAHNIUK, Survivor 

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things that break...

"THINGS THAT BREAK:

FLOWERS.

DAWN.

THE OCEAN.

OUR HEARTS.

THIS IS HOW

GARDENS GROW.

THIS IS HOW

THE SUN BLOSSOMS.

THIS IS HOW WE

MAKE IT HOME.

THIS IS HOW WE

LEARN TO LOVE."

~   Pavana पवन

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We reach..

"THIS BED I FALL ASLEEP IN 

REMINDS ME OF THOSE BOOKS

I READ WHEN I WAS YOUNGER,

SHEETS BENT IN THE SAME

PATTERN I LEFT THEM IN,  

SPINE TIRED AND WORN. 

THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE

TO BE ADORED, I TELL MYSELF,

THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE

TO FALL IN LOVE WITH WORDS

WRITTEN FOR SOMEONE ELSE. 

I READ YOU IN ALL THE SLEEPLESS

CREASES YOU LEFT IN MY PILLOW,

THE WORDS YOU SPILLED IN THE

DREAMS WE USED TO SHARE. 

WE REACH FOR BOOKS THE WAY

WE REACH FOR OUR BEDS,

FOR COMFORT, FOR FAMILIARITY. 

WE LOVE THE WAY IT FEELS

WHEN OUR HEARTS BREAK 

THE SAME WAY WE BUILT THEM. 

THE BOOKS YOU’VE READ

YOU WILL READ AGAIN,

TIME WILL PASS AND YOU’LL

REMEMBER BEGINNINGS

BUT NOT HOW THEY END;

YOU WILL FALL ASLEEP IN THE

SAME SHAPE YOU ENDED

YOUR LAST STORY IN, BECAUSE

YOU’VE FORGOTTEN HOW TO CLOSE

YOUR EYES AND HOW TO START AGAIN. 

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE

MAKE STORIES OUT OF PEOPLE,

WHEN WE BRING THEM HOME WITH US

AND CREATE BOOKMARKS OUT OF ALL

THE PLACES WE USED TO MAKE LOVE. 

BUT BEDS ARE LIKE BOOKS,

I TELL MYSELF, TIRED AND WORN

TO THE BONE; AND THIS IS WHAT

IT LOOKS LIKE TO BE ADORED, 

I’VE BEEN TOLD. THIS IS WHAT

IT FEELS LIKE TO FALL IN LOVE

WITH STORIES THAT WERE NEVER

WRITTEN FOR YOU."

~    ||  MAZA-DOHTA

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you are...

"YOU ARE LIKE THE TREE
WHOSE MAGNIFICENCE
LIES NOT IN THE LENGTH
OF IT’S BRANCHES,
BUT IN ALL THE BIRDS WHO
TRUST THOSE BRANCHES
TO BUILD THEIR HOMES."

~   Pavana पवन

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...

"IN THE DARK FOREST
OF YOUR MIND,
SHOW ME WHERE
THE WILDFLOWERS GROW."

~   Pavana पवन 

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warms...

"… THE JASMINE SEASON WARMS OUR BLOOD."

~   W. B. Yeats, “THE GIFT OF HARUN AL-RASHID” 

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Soak...

"Soak your words 

in your mind

before you speak,

let your thoughts

blossom."

—Maza-Doht
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flowers...

The earth laughs in flowers.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

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.

I woke up this morning

to tell you the sun has risen,

to say that the mornings

are still in bloom like fire 

lilies carpeting a burnt sky. 

I woke up this morning

to tell you the yellow headed

blackbirds have decorated

the pinetree outside again

and whenever they dance

they turn into the eyelets

of a large peacock tail

spread just for us. 

I woke up this morning

to say that my heart still 

feels empty but my soul 

complete like the full moon 

in a cloudless sky,

that nothing has changed 

since you’ve been gone, 

that the sun still rises 

and the trees still spread 

their wings and that my heart 

is still full of stars. 

I woke up this morning

to tell you I am healing,

that with every burnt sky

a new flower grows in its 

place, petal by petal,

to tell you that I am full

of a song I still don’t know

the words to yet but

it is coming, and one day

I will sing it for you.

— I still miss you ||  Maza-Dohta 

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I like revisiting….

I like revisiting, at certain times, spots where I was once happy;

I like to shape the present in the image of the irretrievable past.

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, White Nights

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plans...

Spring is the time of plans and projects.”

― Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina

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around...

AROUND

I saw the world. I learnt of new cultures. I flew across an ocean. 

I wore women's clothing. Made a friend. Fell in love. 

― Jules Verne , Around the World in Eighty Days

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no mystery...

The light is no mystery, the mystery is that there is something to keep the light from passing through.

– Richard Siken

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roses...

…Throw roses into the abyss and say: ‘here is my thanks to the monster who didn’t succeed in swallowing me alive.

— Friedrich Nietzsche
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I am….

I am the water

and you are the drop of ink,

we change each other.

— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson 

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Recently around the neighbourhood….
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I have...

I have a lover with hair that falls

like autumn leaves on my skin.”

— Brian Turner, from “R & R”

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