I don't trust....

"I DON’T TRUST THE TRUTH OF MEMORIES
BECAUSE WHAT LEAVES US
DEPARTS FOREVER
THERE’S ONLY ONE CURRENT OF THIS SACRED RIVER
BUT I STILL WANT TO REMAIN FAITHFUL
TO MY FIRST ASTONISHMENTS
TO RECOGNIZE AS WISDOM THE CHILD’S WONDER
AND TO CARRY IN MYSELF UNTIL THE END A PATH
IN THE WOODS OF MY CHILDHOOD
DAPPLED WITH PATCHES OF SUNLIGHT
TO SEARCH FOR IT EVERYWHERE
IN MUSEUMS IN THE SHADE OF CHURCHES
THIS PATH ON WHICH I RAN UNAWARE
A SIX-YEAR OLD
TOWARD MY PRIMARY MYSTERIOUS ALONENESS"

~   Anna Kamieńska, from “A Path in the Woods,“Astonishments: Selected Poems of Anna Kamieńska, eds & trans. Grazyna Drabik and David Curzon (Paraclete Press, 2007)

image no source, anyone?- via maggieontherocks

frosting...

"

YOUR WORDS 

ARE SIGHS FROSTING
AGAINST A WINDOW. 

I CAN SMELL THE
WINTER IN THEM,

I KNOW HOW LONG
THEY’VE BEEN
INSIDE YOU."

~   Pavana पवन

Carmen Amaya, well dressed (taken from a film on youtube)
makes me want to go to Spain again

learn....

"LEARN ME SLOWLY,

 PLEASE BE PATIENT

WITH MY PAGES.
   I AM A POEM
IN PROGRESS,
   A TANGLE OF WORDS
IN SEARCH OF MEANING."

~   Pavana पवन

. Colin Dodgson

your silence....

"YOUR SILENCE WAS DEAFENING,
SO LOUD MOST NIGHTS THAT
I COULDN’T SLEEP OR REMEMBER
A TIME WHEN AN EMPTY BED
DIDN’T FEEL LIKE A DEATH SENTENCE."

~   LUCY QUIN 

yucca trees, Joshua Tree Nat'l Park, Diana Mini, spring 2013 PHOTO DIARY: SOCAL

it's been nothing but.....

‘IT’S BEEN NOTHING
BUT LIGHT SINCE
WE MET,’ HE SAID.

SHE SMILED,
‘I TOLD THE SUN
ABOUT YOU ONCE.
I THINK SHE POURED
HERSELF INTO ME
SO SHE
COULD FEEL YOU TOO.

"

~   Pavana पवन 

Blommers Schumm

Reach for me...

"

REACH FOR ME

IN THE MIDST OF
CHAOS AND DESTRUCTION,
THAT IS WHEN THE WAVES
ARE TALL AND THE SHORE
VULNERABLE -

THAT IS WHEN
YOUR PASSION WILL SINK DEEPEST
INTO MY SKIN."

~   Michael Lottner 

Scandinavia S/S/A/W - photo by Marcus Ohlsson

Blending Nights....

MICHAELLOTTNER:

the only evidence left

of the fading day

rested below wild clouds

and i think my eyes

gave my secret away

as the sun silently sunk below

you sunk yourself into parts of me

i thought no one would ever go

and when the light crept back above

you were the only part of me

that i seemed to still know.

kowtow

I am dancing...

"I AM LIKE A TREE
IN THE WIND.
I AM ROOTED,
AND I’M DANCING."

~   Pavana पवन
(via MAZA-DOHTA)

Valentino Spring/Summer 2013 by Sarah Moon.

keeping things whole...

"

IN A FIELD

I AM THE ABSENCE
OF FIELD.
THIS IS
ALWAYS THE CASE.
WHEREVER I AM
I AM WHAT IS MISSING.

WHEN I WALK
I PART THE AIR
AND ALWAYS
THE AIR MOVES IN
TO FILL THE SPACES
WHERE MY BODY’S BEEN.

WE ALL HAVE REASONS
FOR MOVING.
I MOVE
TO KEEP THINGS WHOLE."

~   Mark Strand, “KEEPING THINGS WHOLE” 

lily mcmenamy by driu & tiago for tush #35

I've never been...

I’VE NEVER BEEN BRAVE ENOUGH

TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL.

MY THOUGHTS OF YOU ARE BONES

HIDDEN BENEATH THE DIRT. 

THERE’S A LION IN MY CHEST

ROARING INSIDE MY THROAT,

HE BEATS AGAINST MY RIBS

WHENEVER YOU ARE NEAR. 

I LOVE YOU THE WAY A MOTHER ANTELOPE

FALLS ASLEEP WITH HER CALVES:

IN A CRADLE OF SILENCE HELD BENEATH

THE EYES OF A STARVING MOON.

MY CHEST IS A JUNGLE FULL OF BODIES

BLEEDING AND BEGGING FOR LIFE,

YOUR NAME IS A STRANGLED BREATH,

AND I LOVE YOU.

I’M SORRY I STILL CAN’T SAY IT

WITHOUT SWALLOWING YOU WHOLE.

"

~   Pavana पवन

A.F Vandevorst  Fall 2015 via STYLE.COM

I plant...

"I PLANT SEEDS

WHEN IT RAINS.

I AM ALWAYS IN BLOOM."

~   Pavana पवन

AND-OTHER-STORIES:

& Other Stories | With soft notes of violets and peonies, Floral Memento has joined our fragrance family.

all we...

"

ALL WE HAVE ENDURED

WILL MAKE US INVINCIBLE.
FROM THE FIRE COMES STRENGTH.

"

~   DAILY HAIKU ON LOVE BY TYLER KNOTT GREGSON 

Film archives - Paul Jung 2013

a life..

"BE SOFTER WITH YOU.
YOU ARE A BREATHING THING.
A MEMORY TO SOMEONE.
A HOME TO A LIFE."

~   Nayyirah Waheed

D-Efect s|s 2015 “A Small Girl, A Big World”

we....

"

WE ARE NOT THE DIRT

WE ARE PLANTED IN, 

WE ARE THE LIGHT

AND THE WATER

WE NOURISH OURSELVES FROM.

WE ARE THE FLOWERS

WE CHOOSE TO BE."

~   Pavana पवन   

considerthewldflwrs

spin...

"SPIN THROUGH THE NIGHTFALL
AND DANCE UNTIL MORNING LIGHT.
WE ARE THE WALTZING."

~   DAILY HAIKU ON LOVE BY TYLER KNOTT GREGSON  (via TYLERKNOTT)

Field Recordings

and softness...

"AND A SOFTNESS CAME FROM THE STARLIGHT AND FILLED ME FULL TO THE BONE."

~   W. B. Yeats, from “The Wanderings of Oisin” 

Anastasia Kuznetsova

be vast....

ALL SHE WANTED
WAS FIND A PLACE TO STRETCH HER BONES
A PLACE TO LENGTHEN HER SMILES
AND SPREAD HER HAIR
A PLACE WHERE HER LEGS COULD WALK
WITHOUT CUTTING AND BRUISING
A PLACE UNCHAINED
SHE WAS BORN OUT OF OCEAN BREATH.
I REMINDED HER;
‘STOP POURING SO MUCH OF YOURSELF
INTO HEARTS THAT HAVE NO ROOM FOR THEMSELVES
DO NOT THIN YOURSELF
BE VAST
YOU DO NOT BRING THE OCEAN TO A RIVER’

~   you are oceanic - Tapiwa Mugabe

Photography + artwork by Bernhard Handick

things that break...

"THINGS THAT BREAK:

FLOWERS.

DAWN.

THE OCEAN.

OUR HEARTS.

THIS IS HOW

GARDENS GROW.

THIS IS HOW

THE SUN BLOSSOMS.

THIS IS HOW WE

MAKE IT HOME.

THIS IS HOW WE

LEARN TO LOVE."

~   Pavana पवन

mady dooijes

I read...

"I READ THAT IT IS POSSIBLE

TO STAND BETWEEN TWO RAIN DROPS

EVEN IN THE HEAVIEST OF STORMS.

I LOVE YOU BECAUSE THIS IS HOW

YOU HELD ME DURING MY OWN."

~   Pavana पवन 

Robert Radomski

amidst...

"AMIDST THE WAVES AND STORMS OF THOUGHT

MY MEMORY OF YOU STANDS FROZEN, ETCHED IN STONE.

TIME WASHES OVER MY TIRED FEET

LIKE WAVES SOFTENING THE HARDEST STONE, WHISPERING,

‘I LOVE YOU. I LOVED YOU. I LOVE YOU NO MORE.’"

~   Pavana पवन 

Tilda Swinton photographed by Tim Walker for W Magazine “The Surreal World”