my absence

 

Ik zag de vrouw van de aarde. 

Zij lag achterover
en het scheen dat zij sliep.
-Hans Andreus 

I have a story inside me; it lies articulate and waiting to be written. 

(not for everyone to read)

 No words can describe how I feel. 

I miss you every moment of the day lieve mama- I miss your beauty, your love and your wisdom. 

This is not our last goodbye.... I love you

xxx

My mother passed away recently (I looked after her). I've been back- and forwards to my homecountry to look after her. 

 It's been an incredible intense and awakening time for me and my family. 

my images

absent....

One of the reasons I have been absent (ˈabs(ə)nt/) (for a little while) is that we lost our gorgeous boy at the start of (our) summer school holidays. We adopted him three years ago and he was straight away a huge part of our family. We miss you gorgeous boy, we miss falling over you, your excitement when we get home, when you see your friends, your unconditional love. No words can really describe how we (still) feel. We love you my darling boy.... XXX

xxx

How somebody can leave your world in the blink of an eye and be gone forever…

It’s too enormous to think about. It’s too hard.

— Haley James Scott, One Tree Hill
Erin Lawlor

Today 3 years ago- I miss you Daniela
xxx

kitchen science...

a simple project i did with my little ones. 

images by me

around my garden...

in a little corner of my garden i am growing some vegetables and this morning i found a aubergine and a few beans. not that it will feed a family of four, nevertheless i feel proud of it. i honestly didn't know how well they were doing. i am not very good with plants, the only ones that seem to grow are succulents (and weeds), maybe that is because they store water to survive long dry periods. 

images all by me

♥

mel bles

my gorgeous sister in-law passed away yesterday. unexpected, i still can't believe it- i am in shock and devastated. i feel so sad for my lovely brother in-law and his beautiful children. i know she loved them so much. donna was the most beautiful, bubbly person and a laugh you will never forget. who will i gossip with now? i have memories that no one can steal... i miss you donna.  ♥

xxx  

melbourne

a little late...

just before christmas i went to melbourne with my two little ones for a break. (i know a little late, but this post has somehow been lost). i spend some wonderful time with my dear friend dayle (greenbeenfood). dayle works for brasserie bread in south melbourne, they do free bread making classes for the little ones on saturdays, lots of fun. thank you lovely for all the amazing things you did for us, i miss you lots. we did so much walking, i am still tired off it... and i am still laughing and smiling at the fun times we had with my gorgeous friend brett, we met many years ago in london. 

weekend

last weekend was so wet- the little ones made lots of imprinted clay objects (which i may use) and pompoms, a sorry note and love letters...